TRUST.......

I have believed people. Trust me, I always have. I believed them when I was too young to know that people can lie. And I kept believing people even when I grew up with my lessons and scars. I kept believing them because I always thought that no, this human is different. This one feels genuine. And I was always proven wrong, always. So it took me many broken friendships, many heartbreaks, many betrayals, many lies, many tears, and many helpless nights to finally accept that people will always lie. I have made this golden rule in my life to not trust any words, any promises. No matter how pure those eyes look, no matter how sincere the voice sounds, no matter what they swear on, I will not believe your words. I just can not.

But it does not mean that I don't trust anyone. I do trust my people, very few, but I do trust them honestly. But they have earned my trust, with time, with situations, with support. I did not trust them when they said trust me. I trusted them when I saw that care, that honesty, in their actions. Actions, I repeat, actions win my trust, not words. I have been bitten too many times to take that leap of faith for you. No, my feet are firmly on the ground. You know, it's very easy to say things when we want something. You want me as a friend or as a lover, and you will make up anything in the world to impress me, to make me stay. It's very natural for us humans. We are slaves to our desires. We lie because we want it badly. We fake because we can't take a no. We promise because we are too desperate. That's what we humans are. We are weak.

But I have made myself strong now. I know it makes me sound arrogant to you. I know you will say I have an attitude problem. You will call me all the bad things in the world. But you know what? I feel good about myself. I am a hard person to win over. It will take you time, emotions, efforts, and honesty to win my trust. It will be trouble. But it will be worth all the trouble. Because once I count you as my human, then I will do anything for you, anything. But, I am gold, my dear. You can't have me cheap. You have to earn it.