How I can leave them??

And when the going gets tough and things no longer work out, after a certain number of tries, that's when you choose to exit. Yes, you've tried to fix things, you've tried to do better, stick together, as you should, but even after everything, when nothing gets better, you choose to exit.

But can you really exit? Is it so easy? All those years of memories you created, the dreams you dreamt of, the future you foresaw together, is it so easy to leave it all behind? You find yourself saying goodbye and still coming back, you've grown attached to them more than you should be.

Goodbye? Oh no please, can't we just go back to Page 1 and Do it all over. You try, you really do try, sometimes alone, sometimes together, and everytime you choose to walk away, there's some invisible string pulling from behind. Ah, walking away, ain't so easy right?

They said, Love is the most dangerously beautiful thing in the world. I believe there's something more extreme than love - it's called attachment. Because even when all the love fades away, or even when it hasn't yet grown, attachment stays. You can't easily leave behind someone, all because you're attached.

Otherwise, why do most people still get a slight thought about their ex even when they are in a relationship with someone else? Why do you keep going back tothat toxic person even after knowing how manipulative they are? It's simple really, you're attached, no matter how many times you say goodbye, you can't really leave them.

But how long can you put up with this charade? How long can you keep saying goodbye? Once in a while, you do finally realise, it's time, you muster up the courage and after thousands of goodbyes, you bid the final one. You do what you needed to.

And when the going gets tough and things no longer work out, after a certain number of tries, that's when you choose to exit. For real this time. But, how many times can you say goodbye to a person before you can finally leave them?

And Suddenly we are 30

And suddenly, we are 30. It feels like a decade has passed in a day, and now photos taken on our first phones with negligible megapixels and no zoom are surprisingly higher in quality than the latest iPhone. 

Just yesterday, we were excited about beginning our time in college; last afternoon, we were brimming with hope about the future and looking forward to seeing where life takes us, and only last night, we were out causing mayhem on the streets, enjoying our new found financial independence, downing Jagers, knowing our bodies could handle it and. We danced the night away with the people we grew up with, and hangovers were a foreign concept. 

Yet we woke up to the hangover of adult friendships. Some friends are married, some are going for their MBA, and some have quit their jobs, overwhelmed with the soul-draining nature of their jobs and are now travelling the world. Weekly group outings have become annual wedding reunions. Friends who lived a 2-minute walk away are now a 5-hour flight away. Yesterday, we were ready to take the world head-on; today, some of us have been knocked down by life. 

We are not defeated; we are just dusting ourselves off to have another crack at it. From being excited about birthdays months in advance to not knowing what we are doing even a day before, the years have become something that happens to us. The enthusiasm of youth is slowly breathing its last breath, but taking its place is the contentment that comes with age. We are the ones who grew parallel to social media and while it has continuously evolved it has continuously stopped us from doing the same. 

I hope we realise that “life was simpler back then” will always apply and has always applied. Today, we are living a simpler life than tomorrow, and tomorrow is 40. Your bones may have started to creak, your left shoulder and your heart may be injured, but there is life in them yet. Get in your stretches and get out there. There is a life to be lived